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Friday, September 30, 2005

::. + Pain + .::

Heys i'm back. Yesterday bloggy was down.. was it yesterday or the day before yesterday? I think is the day before yesterday. ya.. so read my previous entry ya. Haaaass...

This morning around 4.48am, i woke up with pain... the pain was really excruciating.... It's toothache again! =``````[ So pain that i couldn't ignore it and just carry on sleeping. So i drank milk before taking the pills. The medicine for fever and pain was so effective. After 5 minutes, the pain was totally gone! It is even better than the painkillers Doc gave me.. However, i couldn't sleep after that cuz my mind was full of thoughts. Suddenly had this thoughts on daimoku.

What should i chant for in order to gain actual proof? Chant for the pain to cease? For the treatment to be successful? For a miracle to happen?? Or what? I don't really know what to chant for for obvious actual proof to come out. I don't know.. Someone please guide me? Am i on the right track?

Back to the main point, i tossed and turned on my bed for 1 1/2 hours. After that, i got up to get ready for my final paper. Haha.. Managed to do the paper. I don't know whether i answered correctly. Before handing up my paper, i was calculating and predicting the marks i can get. From the pessimistic view, i can get 50+. Using the optimistic view, i can get 70 to 80+. I am counting the eggs before the chickens are hatched. :x

I should be feeling elated today cuz i have freeeeeeeeedom at last. But 事事难预料. Because of this tooth problem, i can't join the Lil` Lambs for lunch and dinner today. I can't plan boldly where and when i can go out to enjoy myself. Sighhs...

I have come to realise that good health is the only thing that matters. Without good health, i can't enjoy myself. There seems to be something restricting me from the things i like to do. The worst thing is that I CAN'T EAT WHATEVER I LIKE! soooooooooooooooobbs! Haha.. sigh.. I have been eating congee for three consecutive days.. If i experienced pain, i won't have the mood to continue eating. As a result, cuz of the little amount of food i eat, i get dizzy easily and will become thinner and thinner each and everyday! Boohooo.. My mom said i grew thin le.. =[=[ After my teeth are fine, i will 大吃大喝！like i never eat before! Hahahaha.. Don't know when will that day come. Three weeks? Cuz the treatment gonna take around three weeks to complete. Oh ya, i suddenly remember the name of the treatment. It is called Root Canal. >_< Yucks! :x

Maybe i shall chant for no pain so that i can continue doing the things i like, eating EVERYTHING? Haha... :x

OKIES! Now comes the exciting part!! As usual, after the end of every semester, here's what i like to do! -- Planning for my coming holidays!!

1. Tidy my wardrobe
2. Tidy my cupboard
3. Watch finish Stairway To Heaven
4. Watch Beachboys (VCD, not the REAL BEACH BOYS! LOL!)
5. Root Canal =[
6. Find work!
7. K-box with Wan Ling and Gangss!
8. Ice-skating with Wan Ling and Gangss!
9. K-box with Kris
10. Outing with my new 'clique'
11. Going Sentosa with 5/1 kakis!
12. Go suntanning!
13. Learn a new piano piece!
14. Change blogskin!
15. Go JB! Shop shop shop!
16. Go shopping/chilling with sista and gang!
17. Attend Piano concert
18. Attend SPSD meeting
19. Sensei Guidance Video, SPSD performing cultural item!
20. Trim Hair!!!!!!!!!!!! =D =D =D
21. Borrow books

Will all of them come true? So many things to do in one month's time. I hope i can! =D

Rainlite wishhed*
3:38 PM

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

::. + My tooth is sick =[ + .::

Pain.. scare.. yesterday really no mood to take the PTH paper... It's easy but i went out of the exam venue once i finished doing it. Cuz my front teeth very pain.. =[ Really no mood to check my answers =[ So qi ghek.. teeth so pain but there's nothing i can do to stop the pain. =`[ Dampen my mood.. Teeth pain = everything sucks! Haha.. boohoohoos..

Went to the dentist yesterday evening with my mom. The dentist very funny.. he is a graduate from Australia University but he can't speak affluent chinese. lol.. Keep on having difficulty in explaining in chinese to my mom. Later on, my jie and her bf came. My jie laughed ay him for havnig difficulty in speaking chinese. Lolx :x Okies back to the main point... =`[ i got zhu ya.. Need to extract the root of my front teeth.. =[ Scare very pain... soooooooooobbbbbbbbbbbbssssssssssssssssssss... It cost $600 for that treatment.. So expensive... sighs..

Went back home, no mood to study cuz the pain is excruciating.. In the end, today's FMA paper i think gone case le.. Just hope that i can pass the overall. =`[ The dentist only gave me antibiodics and painkillers.. Next tuesday evening have to go for the treatment.. =`````[

Why am i so useless, so ma fan? During my secondary school days, i had backbone problem. Had to wear the body brace.. costing about hundred of dollars? After this, came this stupid tooth problem... I may need to have two treatments cuz maybe gotta save 2 or 3 more teeth. Another $600 again? =[ Then after this treament which last for 3 weeks, i have to put on ya tao? I don't know what's that.. Another $500 again.

Sighs.. hao tong hao tong! =`[ Have to blame my childhood days.. where i don't like to brush teeth. don't laugh at me wors.. i got brush teeth everyday de ok. Haha.. Have to endure... =[ Study for PSCM.. take the paper... go home sleep! Cuz sleeping time is the time when i don't feel pain. Now feeling sicky... i think i having fever.. i don't know >_<

Today's exam venue so darnz cold.. moos.. was trembling while doing the paper.. I am such a poor thingy. Ke lian chong again. haha.. Don't know whether i can work during the holidays cuz of my sicky tooth.. =`[ Can't go ice skating if the pain don't go away... Can't go k-box also if this continues.. sigghhhhh~~ Wo hao pa!

Rainlite wishhed*
10:55 PM

Monday, September 26, 2005

::. + Scare + .::

Yesterday had insonmia.. went to bed at 2.10am after studying.. but slept at 4am++ what the hell..! haha

I am feeling scarez for tomorrow's paper.. not very prepared for it.. just studied on the tips.. didn't focus on other chapters.. just read through nia.. sobs.. scare scare scare...

sobs.. Spent time revising FMA today... haven't touch SCM yet.... die le die le.. >_<

I better go study PTH now >_<

Good luck to me! :]

Rainlite wishhed*
11:03 PM

Sunday, September 25, 2005

::. + What Bloggers! + .::

I am back again! Didn't make any big progress for studying PTH today. Haha.. No idea why i don't have the mood to go memorise them.. so boringz.. ended up studying for FMA instead. FMA is much more interesting though need calculatations. I guess i can concentrate more on calculations. I haven't touch PSCM yet! Omgz.. howz? scare. i am feeling scare again! Just left with.... 4 days to study PSCM? minus the days for studying PTH and FMA.. i think i am just left with 2 days to study for PSCM... Good luck to me.. >_<

Came online.. my friend showed me one ah beng's blog. Wondering whether he's faking (omgz.. for a moment, i thought i was writing vulgar!! Read the 'faking' word again.. lolx.. i am innocent kiez..) it writing in singlish or what. Cuz he seems so pro in writing English. The way he wrote in his entry is like.. so funny! Hahaha.. Of cuz he wrote vulgarities there.. typical ah beng maz.. I think i kena influenced by his way of writing singlish le!! >_< Lolx.. I showed my sister his blog and she laughed even more than me. Lolx.. Anybody interested in reading his blog?

After reading his blog, i went to read one 'famous' local blogger. I was kinda shocked by the way she wrote and the contents inside. So disappointing!! I thought she would blog serious or fun stuff but it came out.. not interesting at all! Haha.. =/ I don't understand at all why there's so many people reading her blog. Haha.. Fun mehz? I don't think so lors!!! cuz there's so much 'rubbish' inside!! oops! :X I can't stand her! >_< Hehes.. =P I think the ah beng's blog is much more interesting than her's. =/

I am hungry!!

Rainlite wishhed*
11:23 PM

Saturday, September 24, 2005

::. + Mugging all the way + .::

Heyz.. it's 11.30pm now... and... i think ... i.. didn't.. make... any.. progress for studying PTH! :X =`[ What i did the whole day was writing the important points down first. Tomorrow then study. hahaha.. Now.. i am focusing on.. fma.. got so many things to remember..

I studied in my brother's room for the whole day today.. cuz there's a malay wedding ceremony going on.. so noisy.. really can't concentrate studying in my room. So i went into my brother's room.. quieter.. no noise disturbance.. so goods.. didn't know his room was so good de. hahahaz..

Nowadays really have nothing interesting to write about in my blog. =[ Siighhh.. There's really nothing interesting in my life as compared with the past, when i was in Year one durnig term one. Haha... sianz..!

Last night dreamt of _____u sia.. sianz.. Maybe i thought of our friendship before i went to bed. What and why _ did to me.. hmmmx.. Sadz.. Will i go solve this someday? My friends told me to be brave and go ahead.. _ is still very obviously ignoring me in school. sianx.. Maybe i will regret not solving this now in future.. i don't know? Let this be a scar? Hahaz.. >_<

Life is so sian huhz.... ~_~

Rainlite wishhed*
11:32 PM

Friday, September 23, 2005

::. + Black Eyed Rings + .::

Haha.. I am from Black Eyed Rings.. not Black Eyed Peas... hahas..

Took my second paper yesterday. I don't know whether i did correctly or not. All i know was that i just wrote til the end of the paper. Hope i can fall onto the clouds.. if not, the sky. :x I don't dare to pin such high hopes.. Perhaps.. fall into the coconut tree? :x haha.. Everything is going smoothly currently... :p

Just changed my bloggy song cuz the previous midi was a sad song. I like this song better.

Didn't know that i am left with just 4 days to study for 2 modules. OMGz.. and i haven't touch them yet.. Gohonzon bless.. Must not slack much le.. have to have intensive studying.

Rainlite wishhed*
12:48 AM

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

::. + Fluee Day + .::

Moos.. i am a flu bug~ :X Guess what? I am having flu againz.. soobs I am prone to having fluuu... cuz today's a windy day.. that's why i kena flu again. sobs.. so terrible right? Mom told me to eat vitamin.. but i dread SWALLOWING the whole pill. yucks.. so i didn't eat it.. went to eat flu medi instead.. smaller pill ma.. easier to swallow..

Feeling sicky now... I almost used up the whole tube of tissue paper. hahaha.. i am so full of germs.. lol :x

Tomorrow having ECM paper.. I don't know whether i have digested what i studied for the whole day today. Feeling scare again.. x_x

Heys.. i feel hungry again.. I think the more i sneeze, the more i get hungry. Haha

Weird... i feel so pro in counseling my dear friend now. Hahaha.. and the result is so zhun.. His other half really feel the same way that i told him how she will feel. Feel like psychoing people now. ahhahah :x Feel so accomplished over this. :p

Rainlite wishhed*
11:21 PM

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

::. + Aimings... + .::

Just read Cheng gege's blog. Felt inspired by what he wrote. Let me repeat what he wrote ba.

If you aim for the Universe, at least you will land onto the sky when you fall.
If you aim for the sky, at least you will land onto the clouds when you fall.
If you aim for the clouds, at least you will land on the coconut tree when you fall.
If you aim for the coconut tree, you will fall onto the ground if you really fall, perhaps, a coconut will hit onto your head too.

Talking about exam grades, let the Universe be Distinction, the Sky be A, Clouds B, Coconut tree C, ground D and the ground with a coconut hitting your head be E. ^^

I want to land on the clouds.. so i choose to aim for the sky. ;>

My favourite cloud! Haha

So where do you wanna land on?

Oh yar.. i almost forgot about this..

It's better to let someone think you're an idiot than to open your mouth and prove it.

Wahahahahaha.. i like this quote! This is extremely true! lolx..

Some more some more!!

May your life be like toiletpaper, Long and useful.

wahahahaas.. okies enough for today.. The above quotes were from doudou. lol

Rainlite wishhed*
10:53 PM

Sunday, September 18, 2005

::. + =S + .::

I am back again. Feel like puking now. Lolx.. No idea why i feel like puking. Be it when i see other peoples' photos? Or when i am listening to mp3. Weird huhz.. Siao le..

Shirin said that one possible reason why i feel like crying for no reason could probably because of my high workload. Or maybe it is the sentimental songs i have been listening to lately? Hahas.. I looked through the list of songs in my Windows Media Player.. hmm.. no comments.. all are... quite sentimental songs.. hahaha.. :X Only a few happy or noisy songs lehz.. Got any happy songs to send me? haha.. :x

Oh ya... wanna share this exam guidance.

'You are you, no matter where you go. Nothing is served by envying others. All people have their strengths and shortcomings. Therefore, all you have to do is to look at yourself, discover our good points and then try to develop them further, this, too will create something of value.'

The above words reminds me of my world again.. Hahahas

Rainlite wishhed*
4:06 PM

::. + Ton-ing again + .::

Halo~ It's 1.22am now. Guess i have been used to sleeping at around 2am+? Ya.. but please don't sms to DISTURB me.. Haas.. Just feeling 烦. Don't feel like replying backs :p Becoming panda le.. ^^ Can concentrate better studying at night around this time.. yeahs... no mood to sleep til..

Life is so boring now! :x

Rainlite wishhed*
1:35 AM

Saturday, September 17, 2005

::. + Ton? + .::

I am back again.. I don't want to sleep yetx.. No mood to sleep.. Don't know why.. It's raining now! Not listening to mp3 cuz the sound of raining is nicer...
Sighs? Shall do survey..

1. Time of starting this?
* 2.25am

2. Were you named after anyone?
* nope

4. When did you last cry?
* long ago.. n mentioning of crying... hmmm...

5. Do you like your handwriting?
* nope

6.What is your favourite meat?
* chicky

7. What is the most embarrassing CD you got?
* none?

8. If you were another person, would YOU be
friends with youself?
* yeps.. tot of this b4. lol

9. Are you a daredevil?
* nope

10. Have u ever told a secret you swore not to tell?
* of cuz nope

11. How do you release anger?
* by blogging!

12. Where is your second house?
* SP

13.Do you trust others easily?
* so-so

14. What was your favourite toy as a child?
* my motor... haha

15. What class in school do you think is totally
useless?
* nth

16. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
* nopez

17. What do you look for in a girl/boy?
* long time nv tink of this question ler.. haha.. nt in e mood to answer this anyway

19. Would you bungee jump?
* someday?

20. Do you untie your shoes when you take them
off?
* nopes.. lol.. lazy

21. What's your favourite ice cream flavor?
* choc-mint/choc-chip

22. What is/are your favourite color(s)?
* blue

23. What is your least favourite colour (s)?
* none in particular

24. How many ppl do u have a crush on right now?
* 0

25. What/who do you miss most right now?
* samba dancing.. =<

26. What colour underwear are you wearing?
* eekz..

27. What are you listening to right now?
* e sound of raining cease le.. now listening to the keyboard..

28. If you were a crayon, what colour would you
be?
* blue

29. What is the wheather like right now?
* sianz.. haha.. i mean.. cool?

30. Last person you talked to on the phone?
* mom

31. The first thing you notice about the opposite
gender?
* hair

32. Do you like the person who sent you this?
*no1 sent

33. How are you today?
* weird

34. Favourite drink?
* milo? haah

35. Favourite alcoholic drink?
* i nt alcholic drinker

36. Natural hair colour?
* black

37. Eye colour?
* black

39. Siblings?
* jiejie didi

40.Favorite month?
* November

41. Favourite food?
* chicky wings.. :x

42. Last movie you watched?
* hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... wad a challenging question.. i tink it was Initial D again?

43. Favourite day of the year?
* my bday of cuz :p

44. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone
out?
* yeaps. too shy tts y nv ask b4..? haha?? I also duno?

45. Scary movies or happy endings?
*happy of course!

46. Summer or winter?
* summer

47. Hugs or kisses?
* both!

48. Do you want your friends to write back?
* haha?

49. Who is most likely to respond?
* bleahz?

50. Who is least likely to respond?
* ...

51. What book/magazine are you reading?
* long time nv read books le

52. What's on your mouse pad?
* dun haf mouse pad

54. Favourite Smell?
* sea?

55. Do you regret ever breaking up w/ some one?
* not sure...

56. Favourite actor/actress?
* hmm.. handsome n pretty de can le.. haha

57. Your Favourite body part (your own)?
* eyebrow? haha

58. Time of finishing?
* 2.34am

Okies.. i think.. i go play my keyboard before i go sleep.. Not the computer's keyboard la.. hahaha.. musical keyboard..
ciaoz

Rainlite wishhed*
1:51 AM

::. + So tired.. + .::

Just came back home.. nono.. came back home one hour ago actually. Yars.. Darnz tired now... Took MRT all the way from Harbour Front to Woodlands. One hour journey.. Didn't want to take the bus to the west side. cuz wanna save $ as i got MR concession. hahahs.. Anyway, i think it takes the same amount of time for me to reach home either way. =S

Darnz tired.. sighs.. shits.. feel :s again just like yesterday night. Yucks? Haha... What kind of diesease is this? Hmm..

I need some energy booster.. Lolx.. Look below!

They brought me a smile! Haha =D I think i shall buy the big bottle of cocoa milk back... =D

Oh yar.. I like the guidance on Daimoku gave by President Ikeda. Its like every sentence is so inspiring? Haha.. nice nice.. The last paragraph is so touching.. =]

Having headache liaoz~... zzzz

Rainlite wishhed*
12:11 AM

Friday, September 16, 2005

::. + =] + .::

相信最后能战胜

就凭拼劲可冲出这一个逆境

=]

Rainlite wishhed*
12:59 AM

Thursday, September 15, 2005

::. + Tired of ... life :x + .::

I am tired of life. sighs.. sianz.. suddenly feel so depressed since yesterday night. Yars.. It's like once i wake up, i have to study.. study til night time. Then after studying.. exams.. sighs.. After exams, get results.. After getting results? Then? So what do i have to do after getting my results? After getting results, it is the start of semester two. Once start, have to proj againz... i am kinda sick of projects... it's like repeating what i have been doing in semester one. Sighs.. Why is it so boring? =[ sigggggghsssssss.. someone save me!! Feel like crying ~ Feel like shouting too... Life is so boring! =[

Maybe i haven't been enjoying much cuz of projing and studying for exams ba.. sobs.. i think i am suffering from depression siaz.. hahaha.. -_-"

Hees.. don't worry for me friends.. I guess what i have said above is true.. so much studying no enjoyment.. No life! sobs.. sighhhhhhs.. I will be alright! I hope.. lol.. going for exam daimokukai tomorrow.. hope will gain some motivation so that i won't feel so.. =/! now.

Rainlite wishhed*
10:48 PM

::. + Some Laughs + .::

Marriage - Part I
Typical macho man married typical good-looking
lady and after the wedding,
he laid down the following rules:
"I'll be home when I want, if I want and at what time
I want and I don't
expect any hassle from you. I expect a great
dinner to be on table unless I
tell you that I won't be home for dinner. I'll go
hunting, fishing, boozing
and card-playing when I want with my old buddies
and don't you give me a
hard time about it. Those are my rules. Any
comments?"
His new bride said, "No, that's fine with me. Just
understand that there
will be sex here at seven o'clock every night
.........
whether you're here
or not."

(DAMN, SHE'S GOOD!)

Marriage (Part II)
Husband and wife had a bitter quarrel on the day of
their 40th wedding
anniversary!
The husband yells, "When you die, I'm getting you
a headstone that reads:
"Here Lies My Wife - Cold As Ever "
"Yeah?" she replies. "When you die, I'm getting
you a headstone that reads:
"Here Lies My Husband Stiff At Last"

(HE ASKED FOR IT!)

Marriage (Part III)
Husband (a doctor) and his wife are having a fight
at the breakfast table.
Husband gets up in a rage and says, "And you are
no good in bed either,"
and storms out of the house. After sometime, he
realizes he was nasty and
decides to make amends and rings her up. She
comes to the phone after many
rings, and the irritated husband says, "what took
you so long to answer the
phone?"
She says, "I was in bed."
"In bed this early, doing what?"
"Getting a second opinion!"

(YEP, HE HAD THAT ONE COMING, TOO!)

Marriage (Part IV)
A man has six children and is very proud of his
achievement. He is so proud
of himself, that he starts calling his wife, "Mother
of Six" in spite of
her objections.
One night, they go to a party. The man decides
that it's time to go home
and wants to find out if his wife is ready to
leave as
well. He shouts at
the top of his voice, "Shall we go home 'Mother of
Six?'
His wife, irritated by her husband's lack of
discretion, shouts right back,
"Anytime you're ready, Father of Four."

(RIGHT ON, LADY!)

Marriage (Part V) The Silent Treatment
A man and his wife were having some problems at
home and were giving each
other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man
realized that the next day,
he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for
an early morning business
flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the
silence (and LOSE), he
wrote on a piece of paper, "Please wake me at
5:00 AM." He left it where he
knew she would find it.
The next morning, the man awoke, only to discover
it was 9:00 AM and he had
missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and
see why his wife hadn't
awakened him when he noticed a piece of paper
by the bed.
The message on the paper read, "It is 5:00 AM.
Wake up."

Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests.

God may have created man before woman, but
there is always a rough draft
before the masterpiece.

Rainlite wishhed*
1:02 AM

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

::. + Test over + .::

Heyz.. i am back again minus the irritating flu. Haha.. Luckily i was fine in the morning.. no more flu.. fluless me.. :s

UCCD test... gone case le.. sooooobss... i spent around 50 minutes for two essay questions.. arhhhhhhz.. Then there wasn't enough time for me to do the some of the questions in Section B.. Shit le.. shit shit shit shit shit! =[ I think i lost 20 over marks.. COL! Sighs.... How would i know that i write so much rubbish for so long.. arghs.. =[ The paper was like Social Studies paper which i did during Secondary school? Cuz the marks was the same for this UCCD paper.. 10 to 15 marks per question ma.. and that was how long i did for one essay question during secondary school de.. =[ Sigh sigh.. regretted doing that stupid question for so long.. sooobs..... so shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit leeee! Hahaha.. Sighsighsighsighsighs..... Hope i won't fail this module for the overall.

Rainlite wishhed*
11:40 PM

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

::. + Sick!!! + .::

Boos... i am sick AGAIN? Haha.. don't know... after the nap i took, irritating fluid came out of my nose again. =`[ No mood to study le. Luckily i finished studying the important parts.. left with one more chapter to go. Oh ya.. tomorrow's UCCD test.. forgot to mention that. haha... I don't wanna to be sick.. Can't be sick tomorrow.. if not i can't have a peace of mind doing the test! Urgs!

Took medicine just now. Should feel drownsy later on. Haha.. In fact, i feel.. weird? Wanna faint now le. haha.. *Aaachiewz*..

Rainlite wishhed*
10:56 PM

::. + Tired + .::

Sheessh againz.. so tired. Presentation? no comments.. hahaha Don't wanna think of it liaoz cuz its over~ Yeshz! I am so tired!! Feel like sleeping.. how am i going to study for test tomorrow if i take a nap... scarez.. but if i don't sleep i also can't study.. haha.. what to do..?

Forgot to mention that i lost sleep again the night before yesterday. Went to bed around 2am but slept at 5am. The next morning when i woke up felt so tiredz... sighs... i am so tired now too...

This week seems to past very fast. Tomorrow is wednesday le. Left with how many days to study for other exams nia.. sobz... scarez~!

Rainlite wishhed*
1:45 PM

Monday, September 12, 2005

::. + RWPS? Sheesh + .::

Went school today for the shitty RWPS lesson cuz one of the group had presentation today. I have to comment that Yvonne's group did well.. but Ms Lim gave them a B grade instead. They didn't even read from the notes but they got only a B grade. What if those who reads from the notes? Will they get a C or D grade? Her standards are darnz high. Scaredy lehz.. scarez... +_+

I must present well tomorrow by overcoming my fear and weakness.. though i am scarez.. hahaz :P I don't care whatever grade she will be giving me.. i just want to overcome my fear and that's it! I would be happy enough for that. =D

Rainlite wishhed*
7:55 PM

::. + 很想你 + .::

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你在那里这些年来如意不如意
还快乐还单纯还美丽时光如何对你

我在这里人海中一座岛屿
很平静风平浪静
只除了深夜里回忆会疯狂来袭

我很想你你知道吗
如果可以就让我再见你
美好微笑清澈眼睛
好确定那场分离只毀了我一个而已

我很想你听见了吗 woo...
这是唯一我无解的困境
那些过去不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息都不是你

我在那里你会不会偶尔好奇
有没有曾经怀疑
我说我会忘记只是种好意都不是你我只想爱你

Don't be mistaken! I don't miss anyone in particular. :p I listen to this song cuz Derrick sang this. hahaha~ Nice song too! :p

Rainlite wishhed*
2:30 AM

Saturday, September 10, 2005

::. + Natural Order Of Things + .::

Very touching - True display of humanity

Please take a moment to read this.....It may change your thinking.

I chose forward.
What about you?
What will you do?

You make the choice. Don't look for a punch line. There isn't one. My question to you is: Would you have made the same choice?

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question. "When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do."

"Where is the natural order of things in my son?" The audience was stilled by the query. The father continued. "I believe, that when a child like Shay comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes, in the way other people treat that child."

Then he told the following story:
Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, "Do you think they'll let me play?" Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play,it would give him a such-needed sense of belonging. Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and, getting none, he took matters into his own hands and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."

In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the outfield. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.

At this juncture, would you let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game?
Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly much less connect with the ball. However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game. Instead, the pitcher took the ball and turned and threw the ball on a high arc to right field, far beyond the reach of the first baseman.

Everyone started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!"

Never in his life had Shay ever made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled. Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!"

By the time Shay rounded first base, the right fielder had the ball. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward second base as the runners ahead of him deliriously circled the bases toward home. Shay reached second base, the opposing shortstop ran to him, turned him in the direction of third base, and shouted,

"Run to third!" As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams were screaming, "Shay, run home!" Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as hero who hit the "grand slam" and won the game for his team.

"That day," said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, "the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world."

AND, NOW A LITTLE FOOTNOTE TO THIS STORY: We all send thousands of jokes through the e-mail without a second thought, but when it comes to sending messages about life choices, people think twice about sharing.
The crude, vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion about decency is too often suppressed in our schools and workplaces. If you're thinking about forwarding this message, chances are that you're probably sorting out the people on your address list that aren't the "appropriate" ones to receive this type of message.
Well, the person who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference. We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the "natural order of things." So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice: Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity or do we pass up that opportunity, and leave the world a little bit colder in the process?

You now have two choices:
1. Delete
2. Forward

Rainlite wishhed*
11:25 PM

::. + Irritating fluid! + .::

Haiz.. see? I so accurate.. When i woke up today, i caught flu? No.. i don't know what is that. Not flu but just got some irritating fluid coming out of my nose. ARghss.. hate it.. Then i feel like vomiting after eating the bee hoon... the smell of my brother's tortise make me wanna puke lors.. arghs... then now the weather is so hot.. but....

+ ::.= SH|Ya =.:: + TiMe To STUDY le!!!!!!!! =D! 一个人心中只有一个宝贝。旧了之后，他变成了眼泪。 says:
den weather so hot

+ ::.= SH|Ya =.:: + TiMe To STUDY le!!!!!!!! =D! 一个人心中只有一个宝贝。旧了之后，他变成了眼泪。 says:
arghs

-FlNaNCI@liSt- Someday you'll know That I was the one for you.... If love can move a mountain~173club~ says:
hahaz..

-FlNaNCI@liSt- Someday you'll know That I was the one for you.... If love can move a mountain~173club~ says:
the weather now not hot

-FlNaNCI@liSt- Someday you'll know That I was the one for you.... If love can move a mountain~173club~ says:
going rain

-FlNaNCI@liSt- Someday you'll know That I was the one for you.... If love can move a mountain~173club~ says:
lolz

-FlNaNCI@liSt- Someday you'll know That I was the one for you.... If love can move a mountain~173club~ says:
u all right ba gal..

Okies.. i am sweating.. but gonna rain soon. I am not alright. Lol..

I wanna study lar!!!!!!!!! Stop irritating me flu! )_("""

Rainlite wishhed*
2:32 PM

Friday, September 09, 2005

::. + Finally? + .::

It's the last day of semester one. Can i say that? Cuz from next week onwards is study break already. I don't know .. hahazz :p Surprisingly, i didn't get sick! :X Oops.. +keep my fingers crossed+ =p

Got ECM presentation in the morning. Before that, i fell asleep during PTH lecture. wahahaaz.. luckily CYY doesn't mind or doesn't even care :x I know it's bad to fall asleep right in front of her when she was giving a lecture. Try to sleep in front of me when i talk to you. lol... how will i feel? Be in my shoes? hahaahzz -_-" But i really have no choice ma.. i will also fall asleep when i tried to stay awake listening to her lecture.. so must as well take a 'nap' in her class.. BLEAHX!

When i woke up, the lecture was already ending. hahaha.. Right timing! When the lecture ended, i walked to the ECM class half sleeping. Too tired... really too tired for presentation. Luckily i endured til the end. Hahazz~

Finally ended le. Left with the stupid RWPS presentation next week! YAR during OUR study break.. WTH!!!! Hmmpx!! DARNZ IT!! lolx.. arghs!!

After class today, went for 'chilling' session with Jeff, Jane and Lee Min. Ya.. At first, they wanted to go for budget chilling, that is to go S11 to chill~ However, as you know, we wore formal wear today for ECM presentation. In order to match our outfit, we chose to go to the TOWN's S11 to chill. Cuz the TOWN matches out outfit. Hahahahahahhaaha~ :x ok that's lame.. =/ In the end, we went to eat Pastamania at Cineleisure. :P After that, we walked around Orchard. Had much fun.. but my legs were tired out~

Hmmm.. i think that's enough for today baz.. Gonna really study very hard for exams le.. don't play play. When you see me online, please ask me to scram off. Thanks. lolx..

Peng you let us jia you and study hard for exams together! =] Yup together.. Let's study hard together, jia you together, encourage each other together, supporting each other together, chant together [SPSD], burn midnite oil to study together and strive together! Hahahaz.. :X Yups together! o_O""""" :P oops... lol.. Must study hard together okies?? Wanling, Ruting, Liling, Jiali, May Ann, Yong Seng, Kinda, Jia Liang, Desman korkor, William and Brandon!! okok? Yup i think that's all for those in SP who reads my blog.. hahaha. rightz？:P If left out anyone must remind me.. so that i can add in your name in my next entry..lolx.. -_-" [Crazy.. who wants me to add.. haha -_-"" that's lame... :P and bhb..] Ya.. please reveal yourself if you are currently studying in SP.. :p

Hees.. i am back for editing.. forgot to mention that.. i miss DD!!!! Fly fly where are you again!! lolx..

Rainlite wishhed*
10:41 PM

::. + S e v e n + .::

SEVEN THINGS IN YOUR ROOM:
- Table
- Bed
- Window
- Radio
- Light
- Jigsaw Puzzles
- Bags

TOP SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY MOST:

- har?
- ur head lar
- haha
- ok
- hey
- orh~
- bye

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT:

1. oxygen
2. water
3. food
4. light
5. gohonzon KEKE
6. friends
7. laughter

SEVEN OTHER THINGS: Do You:

1. Do you smoke?
: nahz~

2. Send short messages?
: yeap..

3.Read the newspaper?
: nodz

4.Pray?
: absolutely..

5.Study?
: will .. :P hahazzzzzz

6.like window shopping?
: shopping is more fun..

7.Wish on stars?
: yups!

Have you ever:

1.gone for a date?
: nodz

2.travel alone?
: parents dun allow.. haha

3.swam in the dark?
: eek.. nopes..

4. gone to a party?
: long time ago ba

5.Ran away from home?
: nah~!!

6.felt depressed?
: of cuz! ahahhahz..

7.felt lonely?
: hmmm.. sometimes? but not now le.. ^^

SEVEN THINGS IN LAST 24 HOURS: have you...

1. cried?
: no

2.Sang?
: tink so

3.Been kissed?
: nopes

4.Felt stupid?
: erm.. yup?

5.Talked to an ex?
: what is ex? hahaha.. ex doesn't exist in my life nemore! They are banned in my life!

6.Missed someone?
: yeps..

7.Hugged someone?
: nopez

Rainlite wishhed*
10:24 PM

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

::. + Why aren't you here with me...? + .::

I am back again. Saw two person's friendster account. Hahas.. the more i see, the more i got sad and the more i will TTM. What if something happen to B? What would i feel? I still feel something though it's over long ago.

Why do i still care for a person when we lost contact for a long time? Does caring for a person stays for long? Why do i still feel all this?

"Someday We'll Know"

[Mandy] Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can't stop driving I don't know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind

[Jonathan] Whatever happened to Amelia Earheart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?

[Both] Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Oh, Someday we'll know
[Mandy] If love can move a mountain
[Both] Someday we'll know
[Jonathan] Why the sky is blue
[Both] Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you...

[Mandy] Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
[Jonathan] Or what the wind says when she cries?
[Mandy] I'm speeding by the place that I met you

[Both] For the ninety-seventh time...Tonight

Someday we'll know
[Mandy] If love can move a mountain
[Both] Someday we'll know
[Jonathan] Why the sky is blue
[Both] Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

Someday we'll know
[Jonathan] Why Samson loved Dalilah?
[Both] One day I'll go
[Mandy] Dancing on the moon
[Both] Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you....

[Both] Open up the world

[Mandy] I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow

[Jonathan] Watched the stars crash in the sea

[Mandy] If I can ask God just one question

[Both] Why aren't you here with me tonight?

Oh, Someday we'll know
[Jonathan] If love can move a mountain
[Both] Someday we'll know
[Mandy] Why the sky is blue
[Both] Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

Someday we'll know
[Jonathan] Why Samson loved Dalilah
[Both] One day I'll go
[Mandy] Dancing on the moon
[Both] Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you....

Perhaps, i didn't mean what i said. Things are so complicated.

Rainlite wishhed*
10:28 PM

::. + Busied + .::

Heys i am back. Didn't realised that i didn't blog for such a long time. Ok, 2 days nia. lolx.. These few days were rather hectics days for me. It was so scary. sobs.. =`[ Cuz i can't use Microsoft Word in my computer, i had to go two of my friend's house to use their computer to do the stupid project. I spent two hours in Lisa's house and six hours in TS house. Eight hours altogether, but i still didn't complete my project. >_< Still needa count back the hours i did the project in school which adds up to around 15 hours of projing this stupid projectz..!! Actually not that bad also.. at least it can be completed in one day's time. Hahas..

On Monday after school, i stayed back to chiong the project. Didn't even have the time to reply smses. Thanks to the Micrsoft Word in my computer. I did til 7.15pm instead of 8am cuz it was quite late already. But still, i didn't finished doing it! So rush... >_< While walking to the MRT station, i saw a rat. So grey, so big... It was STROLLING out of the bushes, stood in front of me, looked around and then ran back. Lolx.. So cute huhz! Hahahas... Back at home, asked Brandon for help. So i was at home, looking through my report in Gmail; spotting errors here and there while he was helping me to change them. Luckily i got his help, if not, i think i will be rushing through the report during the class like MAD!! Xie xie ni! See, i thanks you again! Haas.. We did the project til 1am. I was so tired last night.

In the morning when the alarm was supposed to ring at 6.15am, i didn't hear it ring at all cuz i was too tired to hear that. I automatically woke up at 7.15am. I knew it that i would be late for class today cuz i was soooo exhausted last night working on the project. When i reached the class, everyone was busy editing their report. I was so tensed up, felt so stressed. I could have felt more stress if not for Brandon's help last night! Phew` Really felt tired doing this individual report. Finally, i handed in this hassle to the teacher at the end of the class. Wasted my $1.50 to bind it. Haha.. Oh yar.. and it wasted my $ printing it too! :p

So exhausted... My timetable today was supposedly to end at 5pm but i reached home at 4pm instead. Hahas.. how did i do that? It's a magical thing named 'Pon' =D! Actually i didn't want to pon lectures. But Yvonne heard Mindy saying she wanted to pon. So Yvonne asked Jane for her opinion on poning. In the end, they all wanted to pon. I felt tempted to pon so we ran back home! lolx.. -_-" Yea we really ran... wahahaz..~!

Life will be good for me if i own a thing called 'Laptop'! lolx

Rainlite wishhed*
6:44 PM

Saturday, September 03, 2005

::. + Darnx Microsoft Word!! + .::

Arghs! Everytime i tried to open Microsoft Word to do my project, my computer hangs. Sobs.. In the end, it made my computer go bonkers... Ended up cannot open my computer.. =``[!! So sadz.. really feel like buying a laptop but no $$.. so pa the tic again. hahaz.. wanna work during the hols. i must find work!!!! Don't want to work part time cuz my result already like that when i never work.. lolx.. :x

Darnz is a nice word. wahaha.. thanks to Wan Ling. I got to know the word 'darnz' from her.. haha.. darnz darn darnz Microsoft word!!!!! arghhs!! :x

Darnz.. So i went to Lisa's house to use her computer. Tomorrow going Sijia's house to use.. Hope i can complete my project.. Pray hardz..

Darnz.. darnz darnz darrrrrrrrnz!!!!! hahaz

Rainlite wishhed*
11:38 PM

::. + Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm............ + .::

Heys.. i am back. Just realised that there are lesser entries from me. Been busying with projects... after projects will be studying for Exams!! Tough.. Didn't rest as much since school reopened. Feel like crying cuz it's like so tedious for us this semester. Hao ke pa..! >_< Did around 14 projects altogether in two months time.. =S! boohoos... =~~S scarez.. haha

Morning wanted to go school at 9am instead of 8am cuz very tired; cannot tahan just 6 hours of sleep. Went back home took napz.. but still not enough. Wondering why i still can tahan writing bloggy now. Hees.. Yesterday evening went to watch band concert. Saw Kinda, Brandon and Daniel. Didn't spot any shuai ges in the band.. Hees. but did spot one shuai ge Wan Ling showed me! Haha.. but only can see :p Okies.. back to the main point. The performance was nice! Like some of the songs they played especially 'Shuang Shou De Wen Rou' and 'I believe In Music'. Must mentioned that the secondary students are so uncultured? cuz they spoilt the beats when we clapped along with the music. They did that purposely de.. hmmmpx.. so naughty...But must understand them cuz i have also been their age before :P

Oh yar.. www.sp.edu.sg go see this site! Firstly, they helped advertised for Taufik. Then came Kelly. Now is Kahirul's turn! OMG.. When are they going to stop this! It is so irritating! Lolx.. Who's next! Haha...

Rainlite wishhed*
12:37 AM