wishhingg`

Sunday, July 30, 2006

::. + I don't understand.. + .::

Me. I don't understand myself anymore. What are struggles? Juggling between studies, gakkai activities.. projects.. I don't know what i am doing anymore. I am lost for the first time. Meetings.. activities.. i go. But then, i really don't know what i am doing.. Didn't do anything for my studies. Study break is the time to study for the WHOLE day.. and yes.. i really study for the WHOLE day.. Leader.. what am i? Sometimes, i get too emotional to do serious things.. i can be moody for the whole day even if i got important things to do.. I think it will affect everything i do if i let my emotions get over me. Arghs~

Don't worry for me. I will be fine soon. =]

Rainlite wishhed*
12:48 AM

Saturday, July 29, 2006

::. + Post Poly 50 Celebration + .::

Heys~~ i just came back from the Post Poly 50 celebration. It was a much light hearted celebration where we catered food from outside, had games, video of poly 50, sharing session and also encouragement by iic.

I am so happy that my classmates actually came except for three. Of course i am happy that master came too! =]=] Before the post poly50 celebration, i was asked to plan for the games. I think it took me around three hours (without counting breaks in between) to plan finish the games with help from Yvonne and Peggy as well as some members who were present during thursday's plaza sharing. However, we only had time to play one game cuz Wan Lu also planned the games with her friends. We ended up playing passing the parcel and Wan Lu's game. Overall, it was good and quite fun.

The video of Poly 50 was funny.. hahaz~ the opening scene of the video showed my back! I am so hounoured. Hahaaa.. the sharing session.. i didn't thought that Jonathan would shared with us.. the ball rolled to me after that.. I didn't prepared what to share but i said things from the bottom of my heart. haha..

Felt good after the whole thing was over.

Before i went TBSC, my group mates was 'engrossly' discussing about our CEM project when Jeff came telling us that the ITP posting result was out. I was quite disappointed that Fullerton didn't even call me~~ Back to the point, my group mates and i were overly excited and nervous to know our result that we put down on discussing our project immediately and went to find Chih Wee for the results! Jane, Yvonne and i were holding hands, hugging each other and saying 'very scare leh.. how..? i wanna cry le..' Hahahahaha~ We were so nervous and scare lehhhhhh.. The three of us were scare of getting JBP for our ITP. We were saying that our faces and expressions would changed after knowing our results. I wanted to get into a hotel for itp.. but Conrad already kick me out~ Fullerton didn't called me for interview. and i think i did badly for the Sentosa interview. If Sentosa don't want me, i would probably end up in JBP. Jane wanted to get into STA Travel.. but then they wanted only 2 people. T-connections didn't called her and she didn't want to go into JBP too. Yvonne didn't like Sunny Hol, JBP was out of her choice. She wanted to get into Sentosa cuz that was her first choice. This explains why we were so nervous and scare while we were walking to Chih Wee's room. And the result... Yvonne and i got into Sentosa and Jane got into STA Travel! We were so happy and relieved! Lolx.. Congratulations!!! =D

Even though i didn't get into a hotel for itp, i am still quite ok that i can get into Sentosa laz.. cuz that's my third choice. Who knows what will happen in the future. Maybe i would have a sucessful career working in Sentosa? Everyhing happens for a reason. Maybe wanting to work in a hotel eversince i was in Sec 5 leads me to something else? Haha.. Let's see. Wish me good luk everyone.

Rainlite wishhed*
1:27 AM

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

::. + Back + .::

Heys.. i am still here.. been lingering around my blog these few days thinking of things to write but to no avail. Wonder whether anyone is lingering around here too? I am left with one more project.. hope i won't be rushing it through the deadline.

Lots of things happened.. bad things and good things. Bad things such as quarels, crying over small things blah blah blah but it ended up even better than before. Hahaha~ Thinking back, it was so stupid of me to cry over small things! >_< I forgot where and what i did during the days when i didn't blog. Really forget.. can say i am lazy to think back what had happen la :p But then.. i really got STM..

Good things.. hmm. i don't know whether i should be happy, sad or what. Ruting didi are you reading? Remember the days where i cry out to you talking about the "leaders" thingy for projects? You proved me right! In the end, people will just leave them alone! That's why it is so important to develop good character.. be sensitive to other people's feelings. That is all i can say. Don't wanna gossip here and there.

Oh ya.. almost forgot to talk about what happened last last friday. I had a nice and sweet day although there were some moments of argument. It's really sweet walking the whole street finding the ring. Haha.. I like the last minute top. so sweeet also ^-^ and the neoprints.. it looks like we are in the makeover studio. heez =D

Rainlite wishhed*
2:06 PM

Thursday, July 13, 2006

::. + Poly 50 2006 + .::

I finally could join in the Poly 50 this year! Hehes.. Hard work had finally paid off after a few weeks of intense struggle; plannings, meetings, souvenir makings, calling up members, sms to remind them to attend trainings, email members to encourage them and also some of the disappoinments i went through. Haaa..

This was my first time participating the Poly 50. I felt so excited running but nervous and afraid cuz there's so many people running at the same time. After i ran to station 3 to pass the tag, the helpers immediately went to look for me and showered me with their care and concern. At first, i wanted to lao bak sai cuz it was so touching.. =```] Almost cried lehz..hahaha.. Alot of times lor.. lolx.. Anyway, the helpers did an excellent job! Xie xie ni men! =] The medic helpers also.. never fail to attend to those people who felt sick after running.. The logistic people also.. good job! All these are so memorable. However, sadly, i was pushed and being bumped by people from other clubs without even saying SORRY to me. What the right? I felt so.. angry and sad.. how come there are such people in this world? It's so unhumanistic. It's so sad lor.. Anyway, heck care them.. haha =p

Anyway, all the NICE memories shall remain in my heart. At least i have something to think back while i spend my years in SP. I am so glad that my group Pikachu is quite ON lar.. haaaaa.. at least they made some friends in the team and also learnt what is unity.. what is team work and team sprit. So happy. =] I am also very happy i saw Karen and Wan Ling! =D and of course other seniors too. haha.. The cheers we did when the race was on.. the photos we took.. the friendship we had.. the team spirit.. and also the struggles we struggled together. We are the winners of Poly 50! Excellent job SPSD comrades! Xin Ku ni men le.. All this will be sealed inside my memory box. =]

I am still busy with my projects though poly 50 is over. ITP companies haven't call me for interview yet. Hmmm..

Rainlite wishhed*
12:11 AM

Saturday, July 01, 2006

::. + Projects pilling... + .::

Been busy recently.. projects.. resume writing.. poly 50.. spsd meetings... and attention given to somebody all the while. Been lacking of my nine hours of sleep. I slept for four hours today and then went for poly 50 training. Of course i am feeling tired. Been sitting in front of the computer doing GBE project since i got back home from school after poly 50 training. Almost doze off while doing project.. stupid project.. i hate business projects!!! cuz i don't want to think and i don't know how to think in business sense.. stupid business.. Finally did finish around 11pm just now.. then went to update on poly 50 thingies.. been a long time since i updated it.. i am so inefficient.

Sigh.. feeling emotional now. Howz? Haha.. maybe i am too tired.. i don't know what to write now... i can't have my nine hours of slep later on again. gnona wake up at around 8.30am ba.. meeting my groupmates to do project.. projects and projects.. shitty projects.. arghs.. gonna stressed up soon.. i don't know.. please be understanding with me..

Rainlite wishhed*
11:57 PM